#71

I never acknowledge that IT was a problem before. That IT was an anomaly existing inside of me – I knew IT was unusual but I accepted it as if IT was a part of me.

And I felt comforted by IT – like it was a safeplace for me to go. And that’s okay because IT wanted me and I wanted IT.

I was addicted to IT. More and more I went for IT and more and more IT was consuming me.

IT was tearing part of me, so little at first I hardly noticed. Bit by bit, piece by piece and I start detaching people around me until hardly there was anyone left.

I started making excuses for IT. I lied, I came up with just anything only to be with IT. Because now I needed IT – to survive, to live, to be normal.

And I believed it was normal. I believed it was okay. I believed IT was for me as I was for IT.

But it never was. IT was never there for me.

#63

Now you’re gone, and my life is split to two;

There was always the one before you, and now there is the one after you.

-V.H

 

#59

you will be part of me forever

and

forever i will love you.

-V.H

#57

I was walking through the rain and it comforted me.

Because in it no one notices my pain,

and because of it I was free.

-V.H

#51

Everything comes in pairs; or at least it comes with its equal opposite –

There is love and there is hate. With happiness, sadness comes along. Success feels great yet it is only possible through failures.

One is a clear mirror to the other; and to have a world filled with goodness alone is a mere hope that I allow myself to dream upon.

-V.H

#45

To anyone who reading this, remember that:

There’ll always be someone who will always love you in spite of everything and this people are precious. Keep them.

I experienced this today. And I am grateful that I met them.

They see how special you are even when you can’t. They love you so much even when you don’t. They are always to there for you, to keep you safe and to pick you up if you fall.

-V.H

 

#37

A human living like a ghost, that’s me. Hollow inside and out.

I have always had problems with emotions,

So I try not to make interaction with anyone, or be close with anyone.

As a result, I am constantly alone. And when you start being alone for a long period of time, you’ll feel the numbness. You just don’t feel.

I don’t feel sad, angry or anything at all. Everyday I wake up, get dressed and go to work and come back. And that is the routine – every single day. I thought that not having a care in the world, is a good thing.

But I don’t get why I’m not okay with it.Like something is not right.

-V.H

 

 

#33

 

I noticed something today. In a relationship ( be it any ), we often don’t talk about problems we have with the other person because we don’t want to hurt them.

Then we start talking about them to other person, and the sad thing is that the other person never knows what was wrong- they were never given a chance to fix it.

Instead of telling the person, instead of confronting saying “hey, we need to talk” ;we bottled it up, and up until one point we’ll explode.

Or maybe we stopped talking altogether. And that person is left wondering where they went wrong.

It happened to me before so I know how hurtful that is, I never knew where I went wrong – no one even talked to me about it. And now, I see it is happening again to someone else. 

-V.H

#31

 

 

 

And one day, you were there. You were walking, passing by- going away just like strangers.

I told myself I’m over you; but somehow you still affect me. It aches me ; thinking how close we used to be. All those late nights talk, we hanging out talking about future. How we tell that we will always be there for each other.

And now it’s all gone.

-V.H

#12

An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.

“It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.” He continued, “The other is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”

The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”