Yesterday, I closed another chapter in my life. One that I fought so hard for.
Ending this part of my life, I was reborn; a better matured person. And during that time, I learned how painful heartbroken is, how people eventually grew apart of one another and how at the end, if it was never meant for you, it will never be yours.
To all of whom I met and knew, the memories will forever be part of me. To those few whom I had the chance to be close with, remember that there is a special place in my heart for you guys. Those late night trips, all those random things we did I will treasure it the most. For I know that everything happened for a reason and you guys will be forever missed.
You changed my world completely. And now,
You’re nowhere to be found.
” I for you and you for me. That’s all I need “
But one day you left as I am no longer enough for you.
Sometimes these people came to my mind, these sudden thoughts came rushing in and I kept on thinking on how things could be different.
2 of my friends that are really close to me and I went out the other day and one of them asked:
“Do you think we are the type of friends who would be there for each other if one of us is at the lowest point of our life?”
Both of us answered : “Yeah, for sure. There is nothing for you to worry about.”
And this makes me wonder how many would be there for me, on the lowest point of my life. Don’t get me wrong, this has nothing to do with the number but it’s about who genuinely cares for you.
And yet I still don’t have a definite answer for it, and I’m still wondering.
“How are you ?”
“I don’t know”
Now I am comfortable with being lonely. These scary thoughts still haunt me but they are less scarier. It feels less and less frightening and more like home – like I belong there. Like if I don’t surround myself will all these thoughts I can get crazy.